Oh daylight savings....

10:57pm

Daylight savings is always a win-lose situation. During the Spring forward daylight savings, it's kick ass because the daylight lasts longer and warm weather is on the way, but it sucks because you lose an hour of sleep and get all sorts of messed up for a couple of days. Fall backwards daylight savings rocks because you get an extra hour of sleep, but sucks because the day becomes shorter.

I am so mother effing ready for Spring.

I got piss-pants drunk last night in that I really did piss my pants as I was throwing up out of the window in Red's car on the way home. Well... it started at McDonald's. I feel terrible for whoever was in line behind us because there was no way they could have missed seeing the chunks flying. And since I have a terribly weak control over my bladder anyway (I mean come on, I pee my pants when I sneeze sometimes...) I ended up having a little accident. Then Red did not think to put them in the washer or dryer last night and I had completely forgotten that I had an accident, so I had to wear his pajama bottoms home. With cowboy boots on.

It was pretty ridiculous.

I shouldn't have gotten so messed up but I frankly did not care because I've purposefully stayed away from drinking for the past several weekends for the very reason of hating hangovers and puking. Last night, I just tossed my inhibitions to the wind and started Spring Break a weekend early with tequila, wine, champagne, and several games of beer pong where David and I kicked so much ass. I knew what I was getting myself into when I mixed everything and I still did it. So bite me.

We had nasty-ass Mexican for dinner tonight and now I'm regretting that even more than the drinking because I have raging heartburn and the food was gross anyway. El Tap beats them all.

At least I don't have to worry about being up all night doing Physics homework because I was a diligent and productive little student yesterday and did every single one... almost every single one. All except for one which can get answered in class tomorrow because Dr. Rulison is just kick ass and always gives some extra time in class to work out problems.



(in this picture I have on a pair of Red's blue jeans since he didn't put my piss ones in the wash... and they were so saggy that I had to take a hoodie and stuff it into the rear end to fill it out and I just thought I should share it.)

Rain, Rain, Go Away

12:40pm

I may have just made an agreement to ruin my day and deepen myself into a pissed off mood. Tori and I are going to be meeting at Lenox to go have lunch, but then she said something about going to American Eagle. Going there just sets the stage for an opportunity for her to rub it in my face (whether on purpose or ignorantly accidental) how much weight she's lost and how much smaller she is than I am now. Girlfriends aren't supposed to act like this, but I cannot help but feet resentful towards her about it.... I mean she's done shit like it before. We went to eat at a Thai place a few months ago and we get there and she makes me order first, so I get a full entree and she order two spring rolls. With that particular instance, I confronted her about it and told her that when she does shit like that (which is often.. again on purpose or ignorantly accidental, idk) it makes me feel like a fatass for ordering real food while she nibbles on cabbage wrapped in a shell. She actually quit eating this time last year (which is also when she lost most of her weight) because she'd always eat, literally, three bites of her meal and be "full." At least when she started dating that fuckass Steven and he got her into smoking pot, she would get the munchies and actually eat for real afterwards.

Whatever. If she wants to go to AE, I'll tell her that I'm going to walk around the mall because I need the exercise and I'll meet her after a little while.

uno, dos, tres, quatro, cinco, seis, siete, ocho, nueve, diez!

7:50am

Gooooooooood Morninnnnnnnnng!

Today is the last Physics lab for TWO WHOLE WEEKS. I'M SO FREAKING EXCITED.

I don't need another Hell Week

12:15am

Holy Santa Claus shit, it's late. I have a long day ahead of me tomorrow.

Well... by the looks of it, a long week. Again.

I was terrified of Hell Week last week and I completely skirted most of my responsibilities and made half-assed performances in all my classes.

This week's Hell Week isn't consisting of academics much, but more of other responsibilities that I just don't want to do.
Monday: Physics test re-take. It's usually only 2 or 3 problems long and it can add up to like 40 points on our test score. Granted I did well on the test, it'd be nice to tack on a little bit more. But I haven't studied....
Then I totally didn't realize that the time I signed up for that coincides with the time I (very regrettably and unwillingly) signed up to go table for PhiDE's Relay for Life thing. The only reason I signed up to table is in hopes that it could potentially get me out of having to participate in Relay for Life. I don't care how silly or selfish it sounds, I don't want to hang around a football track with my fraters and walk for an hour. Plus, I don't much care for the girl in charge of all the Relay stuff. I'm crossing my fingers that she isn't the only one working the table tomorrow and Wednesday.
Then tomorrow night at 5pm, I have a Navy speaker I have to go listen to so that means I'm not going to get home until about 7.

At least I get to ball out in the Escalade tomorrow.

Tuesday: I get to pull out my hair waiting to see my grade on our Core test from, oh idk, three weeks ago? M. Smith may have a pseudo-easy class but goddamn she is the most unorganized person I have ever met in my life. Bio shouldn't be too bad, except we may get our lab practical grades back. Fucking awesome. Physics lab will make me want to kill myself.

Wednesday: again, tabling for Relay. We'll probably get our lab midterms back in Chemistry and oh BOY I cannot wait to not see that grade.

Thursday: Core and Bio. There will be a lecture quiz in Bio which hopefully won't be terrible because I spent some time at the hospital reading some of my notes in my Drop Box (best app everevereverever) so I'm kind of on top of my game.

Saturday: we have a mandatory volunteering that we are doing at this place called the Blue Heron Nature Preserve. Dr. Baube said something about rebuilding stairs or something. If he knows what's good for him, he will not hand me tools. Maybe there will be torrential storms on Saturday.

God I sound like such a baby sometimes.

Oh, and one more thing. Tonight Mammy got admitted to the hospital with her HR at 180 bpm and BP at 90/60, which are ridiculously high and ridiculously low. They're keeping her (alone) overnight for observation and will hopefully go home tomorrow.

I would have spent the night.

***
11:34am

Oh my god it is such a gorgeous day outside. The temp on the car is reading 76 (but it's probably more like 66 or 67)

It sucks it must be spent inside allllll freaking day.

This morning started off pretty crappy too. I got to school and realized that I had a gaping hole in the underarm part of my shirt, so I had to go back home and change my clothes... vanity is my sin and I didn't want people thinking I was a slob. Then dad fussed for me coming home ('cause I'm in his car today) and then said that he may not be able to get my car up to the shop today.... awesome. The really sucky thing is that I had to reschedule my Physics retest for tomorrow so I could go home. Which, I guess, could be a good thing since I didn't study. It gives me an extra day.

But then I got back in the car and the good cd flipped on and I put the sunroof back and the windows down. This is more like the weather we need.

Except now I have to go table. :(

***
4:06pm

I am sitting in heaven right now. On the Quad. In the sunshine.

***
11:28pm

so.... an Army doctor is always a career I could consider. Some recruiters came and talked to PhiDE tonight and it's a considerably good package.

idk. I'm tired and am jabbering away with sleep deprivation and that's never a good combination.

Today I got to play with a live, beating heart of a frog and mess with it with different drugs.
IT WAS AWESOME.

Still need to update on the other family drama that I said something about the other day but there just aren't enough hours in the day. Especially when all the earthquakes are starting to make use lose milliseconds from our day!

AHhhh!

Vacation

1:33am

I need a vacation. I need to get away from everything and everybody.

I want to go somewhere alone. I won't mind being by myself. At least for a little while.
But I just want to go away for a while.

I need some space from Red and Tori and the rest of my friends. Doing that is completely against what I've always preached about being together and spending as much time in our fleeting lives as we can.

I just think some time away from everything would do me some good.

Unfortunately a) I cannot afford to go anywhere. b) my parents would not let me go anywhere by myself. and c) the first available opportunity that I could go somewhere at a relatively low cost is sometime during the 2nd week of May... two months away.

I think during SBX, I'll just have to rent some movies about beaches and pretend I'm there.

Alice in Wonderland tonight! Woo!

1:22pm

I'm about to go take a nap, but there is a rant that I must commence with upon my return, involving my deranged, selfish siblings along with the idiot drivers I've encountered today.

And I witnessed Casper the [apparently VERY] friendly puppy humping an 11 month old baby today. Lipstick out and everything.

Things that make you go..."buuuuhghghghgh."

:]

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10:19pm

and another to add to my rant of people who piss me off is the bitch lady in the bathroom at the movies tonight. All the stalls were full and I was waiting in line and she walks out, looks at me, turns around and says, "Oops, sorry," and turns back into the stall and flushes the toilet. Except she was already about 8 feet away from the stall when she decided to flush her nasties.

Ignorant people.

Except I'm probably not gonna make it to a rant tonight because I'm pretty tired and starting to crash from my Mountain Dew high. Even though I napped for nearly 3 hours today....

oh well.

Induction Night! Woo!

8:16pm

It's awfully late for a blog, huh?

Tonight was induction night for the new brothers of PhiDE. Awesomeness :]
I probably should have stayed for the pizza and stuff but me and dad kind of already had dinner planned.
Except now my stomach hurts and I don't feel like eating mine.

It looks so good too. :[