I'm not keeping any resolutions because I never stick with them anyway. I can't even keep a one-month short term goal that I started when Christmas break began [which were: keep a blog every day, lose 10 more lbs, make cupcakes for Christmas, stretch and exercise more, and I think there was another but I can't remember.]
All goal keeping does is piss me off and make me grumpy.
And so do some friends and family sometimes.
ugh. whatever.
December 31, 2009
December 28, 2009
hm
Fail.
a) it's hard to remember to make a bloggity blog everyday.
and b) it's dull around here anyway, with school being out and stuff so there's nothing fun to write about anyway.
But here's a quick update:
Christmas was fun.. Got lots of fun stuff. My most favorite thing I got is the PSPgo system [except mine is white]
I wanted the old PSP, frankly for the fact that it was cheaper and I knew that Christmas was gonna be on a tight budget this year, but my stepmom said that they were sold out of that one so she just upped and got the bamf new one. It's pretty cool, it flips open and it's really portable-friendly because it's so small. I think the best part is that instead of having to go fight all the little kids at Best Buy and WalMart to buy games, you just download them straight onto the 14GB console from the PSP network through wifi. That is very nice, for me in particular, because I'm retarded and lose stuff so easily anyway and with that you don't have to keep up with all the little [and breakable] disks. If I'm lucky enough for my internet to hold out, I'll have The [unrated] Hangover downloaded in another...... 64 minutes. That's the only thing that I have to gripe about it PSPgo. Download time sucks ass. For a typical game to download, and I'm talking, like, more than 100MB, it takes about 10 minutes to download and 5 more to install. Which isn't terrible, but it is kind of a pain. Movies, however, are much larger than 100MB (try 1000+) and therefore take for effing ever. Like now.
It's kind of silly and stupid, whatever you wanna call it, but if I may be down to earth honest, the biggest reason I wanted a PSP is because you have the options of getting the old games from the original PlayStation One. Since mine went awol a few years back and I was feeling nostalgic to the point of being sick, I really really really really wanted to be able to play the old Spyro the Dragon and Crash Bandicoot.
And I have been for the past couple of days and I'm a happy little girl now. :]
I got a bunch of other random things.... like a Ped-Egg. Hey, at least I'll have soft feet... if I ever get over the idea of taking a grater to my feet and collecting the shavings in a little egg shaped container and then throwing up. I mean throwing them out. ;] And it has a handle too, so at least we got that going for us.....
I also got the Wii Active game... I mean I guess it's a game, but it's a bunch of workout stuff. Which I need awfully bad right now because I have been a complete glutton for the past week and I need to get back on my diet and exercising and stuff. I don't think tonight was very proactive with chicken alfredo, then krystal's on the way home and then 2 pigs in a blanket after I got home.... Jesus, that sounds terrible. Anyway, back to the Wii Active. It's pretty cool so far. There's a 30 day challenge thing where you do it every day for 30 days and it gives you new workouts everyday. It's things like walking/running in place for 2 minutes, squats, lunges, jump squats (ouch...), annnd... idk, a bunch of things to pick from. I actually did start that today and did two workouts. I'm liking it better than the Wii Fit because the Wii Fit requires too much coordination and coordination is not my strong point. And that goddamn board that comes with the Wii Fit is a scale, which I did not know until I stepped on it and it told me to get off. Not really, but I did do it in front of Tori and it did my BMI and stuff and added about 70 lbs to my avatar and it was quite embarrassing. So, Wii Active> Wii Fit.
Annnnnd yeah. Besides the few other not-as-exciting gifts, that was Christmas in a nutshell.
It was pretty swell and all, but I'm ready to go back to school now. For one reason, I'm thinking that being back on a regular schedule will help me get back on my dieting track. Schedules make me a happy girl. Another reason is that I'm quite bored during the day, even with Spyro and Crash. And sweating my fatass to death on the Wii. Granted I'm not thrilled about reading Aristotle and St. Thomas Aquinas, at least it's something to do.
I dun really know what else to write about now. I just sneezed about seven times in a row. It's getting down into the 20's tonight. I'm really gonna try to get up at a decent hour tomorrow. I wonder what kind of workouts are coming up next. I'm really thinking about going and getting me a cheap juicer from target or something and making me fruit and veggie juices. I'm kind of rambling on right now. I'm gonna go make a list of something. Lists and schedules... it's porn for OCD people.
LIKE ME!
:]
a) it's hard to remember to make a bloggity blog everyday.
and b) it's dull around here anyway, with school being out and stuff so there's nothing fun to write about anyway.
But here's a quick update:
Christmas was fun.. Got lots of fun stuff. My most favorite thing I got is the PSPgo system [except mine is white]
I wanted the old PSP, frankly for the fact that it was cheaper and I knew that Christmas was gonna be on a tight budget this year, but my stepmom said that they were sold out of that one so she just upped and got the bamf new one. It's pretty cool, it flips open and it's really portable-friendly because it's so small. I think the best part is that instead of having to go fight all the little kids at Best Buy and WalMart to buy games, you just download them straight onto the 14GB console from the PSP network through wifi. That is very nice, for me in particular, because I'm retarded and lose stuff so easily anyway and with that you don't have to keep up with all the little [and breakable] disks. If I'm lucky enough for my internet to hold out, I'll have The [unrated] Hangover downloaded in another...... 64 minutes. That's the only thing that I have to gripe about it PSPgo. Download time sucks ass. For a typical game to download, and I'm talking, like, more than 100MB, it takes about 10 minutes to download and 5 more to install. Which isn't terrible, but it is kind of a pain. Movies, however, are much larger than 100MB (try 1000+) and therefore take for effing ever. Like now.
It's kind of silly and stupid, whatever you wanna call it, but if I may be down to earth honest, the biggest reason I wanted a PSP is because you have the options of getting the old games from the original PlayStation One. Since mine went awol a few years back and I was feeling nostalgic to the point of being sick, I really really really really wanted to be able to play the old Spyro the Dragon and Crash Bandicoot.
And I have been for the past couple of days and I'm a happy little girl now. :]
I got a bunch of other random things.... like a Ped-Egg. Hey, at least I'll have soft feet... if I ever get over the idea of taking a grater to my feet and collecting the shavings in a little egg shaped container and then throwing up. I mean throwing them out. ;] And it has a handle too, so at least we got that going for us.....
I also got the Wii Active game... I mean I guess it's a game, but it's a bunch of workout stuff. Which I need awfully bad right now because I have been a complete glutton for the past week and I need to get back on my diet and exercising and stuff. I don't think tonight was very proactive with chicken alfredo, then krystal's on the way home and then 2 pigs in a blanket after I got home.... Jesus, that sounds terrible. Anyway, back to the Wii Active. It's pretty cool so far. There's a 30 day challenge thing where you do it every day for 30 days and it gives you new workouts everyday. It's things like walking/running in place for 2 minutes, squats, lunges, jump squats (ouch...), annnd... idk, a bunch of things to pick from. I actually did start that today and did two workouts. I'm liking it better than the Wii Fit because the Wii Fit requires too much coordination and coordination is not my strong point. And that goddamn board that comes with the Wii Fit is a scale, which I did not know until I stepped on it and it told me to get off. Not really, but I did do it in front of Tori and it did my BMI and stuff and added about 70 lbs to my avatar and it was quite embarrassing. So, Wii Active> Wii Fit.
Annnnnd yeah. Besides the few other not-as-exciting gifts, that was Christmas in a nutshell.
It was pretty swell and all, but I'm ready to go back to school now. For one reason, I'm thinking that being back on a regular schedule will help me get back on my dieting track. Schedules make me a happy girl. Another reason is that I'm quite bored during the day, even with Spyro and Crash. And sweating my fatass to death on the Wii. Granted I'm not thrilled about reading Aristotle and St. Thomas Aquinas, at least it's something to do.
I dun really know what else to write about now. I just sneezed about seven times in a row. It's getting down into the 20's tonight. I'm really gonna try to get up at a decent hour tomorrow. I wonder what kind of workouts are coming up next. I'm really thinking about going and getting me a cheap juicer from target or something and making me fruit and veggie juices. I'm kind of rambling on right now. I'm gonna go make a list of something. Lists and schedules... it's porn for OCD people.
LIKE ME!
:]
December 24, 2009
Crappit
I didn't do a blog yesterday. Again.
Ahhh phooey.
I'm baking a pecan pie right now. :]
Next time I'm altering the recipe because I thought of something halfway through it's baking process. I'm gonna add cinnamon sugar on top of it next time.
:]
mmmmmm smells like Christmas!
Ahhh phooey.
I'm baking a pecan pie right now. :]
Next time I'm altering the recipe because I thought of something halfway through it's baking process. I'm gonna add cinnamon sugar on top of it next time.
:]
mmmmmm smells like Christmas!
December 22, 2009
hearts, stars, & horseshoes, clovers & blue moons
Okay so I got sidetracked yesterday and never got back to what I was talking about and I don't really remember what the rant was about anyway.
Except the one about my grades. The thing that made me the most frustrated was my grade in Biology. Granted a C+ is, like, two points from a B [first frustration], the fact that I studied the hardest for that final and got 146/200 [which is a 73ish]. Aside from trying to be disciplined and giving up FaceBook for a few days, on the eve of the final I stayed up until 2:30am doing nothing but studying then woke up at 5:00am to study for another hour and a half. For what? To earn a C and potentially cost the difference between a B- and a C+. It's like wasted effort.
Then at WW, I was up +1.6 lbs. Which is not something to beat myself up over because I'm still down a total of 16.6 and I've already admitted to myself that I did terrible over the week and that it should be no surprise and that I deserved that. And I've been good all day today.
I am absolutely, unbelievably relieved that all of my Christmas shopping is almost done. ALMOST. I still have to get 2 photo albums, a picture frame, and a CD tomorrow. The rest of them are getting gift cards.
"Sorry for being impersonal this year, guys, but one reason why I hate Christmas is because I hate shopping for everyone and it's always expensive."
I actually told my sister that. But it's how I feel and I shouldn't have to keep that bottled up. But then again, that's why I have this little box to type and type and type and rant all my little heart desires about everything!
Oh and I found out that the brothers and sisters and cousins are all spending the night after all [except for maybe two of them, but they never want to play games anyway.] So it was just a typical miscommunication that goes on in this family that cause that little blip.
Yep. kaybye.
Except the one about my grades. The thing that made me the most frustrated was my grade in Biology. Granted a C+ is, like, two points from a B [first frustration], the fact that I studied the hardest for that final and got 146/200 [which is a 73ish]. Aside from trying to be disciplined and giving up FaceBook for a few days, on the eve of the final I stayed up until 2:30am doing nothing but studying then woke up at 5:00am to study for another hour and a half. For what? To earn a C and potentially cost the difference between a B- and a C+. It's like wasted effort.
Then at WW, I was up +1.6 lbs. Which is not something to beat myself up over because I'm still down a total of 16.6 and I've already admitted to myself that I did terrible over the week and that it should be no surprise and that I deserved that. And I've been good all day today.
I am absolutely, unbelievably relieved that all of my Christmas shopping is almost done. ALMOST. I still have to get 2 photo albums, a picture frame, and a CD tomorrow. The rest of them are getting gift cards.
"Sorry for being impersonal this year, guys, but one reason why I hate Christmas is because I hate shopping for everyone and it's always expensive."
I actually told my sister that. But it's how I feel and I shouldn't have to keep that bottled up. But then again, that's why I have this little box to type and type and type and rant all my little heart desires about everything!
Oh and I found out that the brothers and sisters and cousins are all spending the night after all [except for maybe two of them, but they never want to play games anyway.] So it was just a typical miscommunication that goes on in this family that cause that little blip.
Yep. kaybye.
December 21, 2009
Warning: This may be epic in length
Cause I have a lot on my mind.
First of all, Happy Monday.
There's only four days left until Christmas but I have no excitement about it left at all. I found out today from the housekeeper that on Christmas Eve, it's definite that none of my brothers and sister are going to be spending the night at home this year. No bored games. No matching pajamas. No spirit. Instead, a friend of the family is going to be staying in one of the bedrooms and my step-ex-whatever aunt is staying in the other. Pretty sure both of them are over 50 and go to bed early. The only person I would imagine would potentially spend the night is my unmarried sister... But then again, I can't even depend on her at WW. She's skipped the last 3 weeks and I'm betting she won't be there tonight. And she's missed two of my weight loss celebrations. [At WW, there's a celebration for every 5 lbs. you lose... You get a gold star [[I know, exciting!]] to put on a bookmark and accumulate them on there. You also celebrate for losing 5% of your total weight and 10% of your total weight.] She missed my 5% and 15lb. mark.
Senior year, Ms. Derricks always had a saying that went something like, "There's nothing certain or dependable in life except death and taxes." I can't depend on traditions, I can't depend on people, I can't depend on myself.
Whatever.
So like I said before, the weekend was eventful. I guess. I mean I spent at lot of time around everyone but we just didn't really do much. Friday night, we were all supposed to go to Seve's condo thing in downtown Atlanta, but everyone backed out and it ended up just being me, Red, Jon, and Seve going. I drank my whole bottle of wine because Friday was the day that we got grades [which is another thing I have to rant about] and I just felt like taking out my anger and disappointment on my liver. We watched GI Joe and I have no idea what it was about and how it went. Then me and Red left around 1 and went back to his house. We stopped at McDonald's and then had to pull into a Toys 'R Us parking lot because we both had to pee and I must say, I've never had to pee outside like that before. Doing it tipsy made it even more fun. So we got home and that was Friday.
Saturday I woke up with full intentions to get all of my Christmas shopping knocked out. I picked up Tori and we went to Lenox mall and I seriously thought I was gonna slap somebody at some point. Every single rude shopper in Atlanta was there that day. So after 20 minutes of searching for a parking spot and about 45 minutes of walking a mile an hour behind all the slow mall walkers and being pushed and shoved, I wanted to leave and there wasn't really anything there that I wanted anyway. So we went to Northlake and I got Red his PJ bottoms that he wanted, and that's it. One reason I don't look forward to Christmas is because I hate shopping for people because I never know what to get them. Especially my family. I'll come back to that though. So we left Northlake and went to Michael's and I saw that all of their Christmas decorations and ornaments were on sale for very cheap. I got a few boxes of ornaments to put on the tree at Red's house because they had 1 ornament on there and, being a bachelor pad, I knew it wouldn't get decorated anyway. So that was their gift. I went to my grandmother's for dinner and it was... whatever. The side of the family [her sister and husband's family] can be difficult to get along with at times so it's never really a ride in the park to be around them. It was okay though. :] We all met at Roy's after that and were just hanging out. At one point, the ten of us went to Starship... nothing else to do. Later, we left to go to this "party" that turned out to be some high school kid who lived in his aunt's basement. There were probably more high schoolers down there, but David and I never made it past the door. When the middle-aged lady wearing the blue mu-mu answered the door, we kind of knew that it was not our cuppa tea, even though the rest of them went downstairs. So David and I dipped and went to his house and I got to play with his puppy AND eat homemade sweet and sour chicken.... I think I had the most fun that night. They called, finally realizing how lame it was, and we met them to go to some other supposed party but when we got there it was a bust too so we finally just called it quits and headed home. And that was Saturday.
Oh! Except when we got home, I made Red go downstairs and I got all the ornaments I bought and put them all over the tree. Turns out, they didn't even realize it had been decorated until the next night. But whatever, I did some good.
Sunday, we woke up and met Jon and Seve at Gwinnett Place Mall because Seve had to find some lingerie Santa suit and.. there was nothing else to do anyway. I got a present for my mom and the other half of Red's present (while he was there... hah!). Then we went to Discover Mills and were just kind of putzing around. Bass Pro Shops is always fun. :] Didn't see anything else there that I could get for anyone. We left and went back to Red's house because we were all supposed to play poker but a few people didn't show up and I was too tired to have any energy to play anyway. So we just sat around watching TV and that was Sunday.
And so now my sister just texted me and asked me to go to the 5pm WW meeting, which is in 20 minutes. I guess I have to go change out of my pjs now..... damn.
More later.
First of all, Happy Monday.
There's only four days left until Christmas but I have no excitement about it left at all. I found out today from the housekeeper that on Christmas Eve, it's definite that none of my brothers and sister are going to be spending the night at home this year. No bored games. No matching pajamas. No spirit. Instead, a friend of the family is going to be staying in one of the bedrooms and my step-ex-whatever aunt is staying in the other. Pretty sure both of them are over 50 and go to bed early. The only person I would imagine would potentially spend the night is my unmarried sister... But then again, I can't even depend on her at WW. She's skipped the last 3 weeks and I'm betting she won't be there tonight. And she's missed two of my weight loss celebrations. [At WW, there's a celebration for every 5 lbs. you lose... You get a gold star [[I know, exciting!]] to put on a bookmark and accumulate them on there. You also celebrate for losing 5% of your total weight and 10% of your total weight.] She missed my 5% and 15lb. mark.
Senior year, Ms. Derricks always had a saying that went something like, "There's nothing certain or dependable in life except death and taxes." I can't depend on traditions, I can't depend on people, I can't depend on myself.
Whatever.
So like I said before, the weekend was eventful. I guess. I mean I spent at lot of time around everyone but we just didn't really do much. Friday night, we were all supposed to go to Seve's condo thing in downtown Atlanta, but everyone backed out and it ended up just being me, Red, Jon, and Seve going. I drank my whole bottle of wine because Friday was the day that we got grades [which is another thing I have to rant about] and I just felt like taking out my anger and disappointment on my liver. We watched GI Joe and I have no idea what it was about and how it went. Then me and Red left around 1 and went back to his house. We stopped at McDonald's and then had to pull into a Toys 'R Us parking lot because we both had to pee and I must say, I've never had to pee outside like that before. Doing it tipsy made it even more fun. So we got home and that was Friday.
Saturday I woke up with full intentions to get all of my Christmas shopping knocked out. I picked up Tori and we went to Lenox mall and I seriously thought I was gonna slap somebody at some point. Every single rude shopper in Atlanta was there that day. So after 20 minutes of searching for a parking spot and about 45 minutes of walking a mile an hour behind all the slow mall walkers and being pushed and shoved, I wanted to leave and there wasn't really anything there that I wanted anyway. So we went to Northlake and I got Red his PJ bottoms that he wanted, and that's it. One reason I don't look forward to Christmas is because I hate shopping for people because I never know what to get them. Especially my family. I'll come back to that though. So we left Northlake and went to Michael's and I saw that all of their Christmas decorations and ornaments were on sale for very cheap. I got a few boxes of ornaments to put on the tree at Red's house because they had 1 ornament on there and, being a bachelor pad, I knew it wouldn't get decorated anyway. So that was their gift. I went to my grandmother's for dinner and it was... whatever. The side of the family [her sister and husband's family] can be difficult to get along with at times so it's never really a ride in the park to be around them. It was okay though. :] We all met at Roy's after that and were just hanging out. At one point, the ten of us went to Starship... nothing else to do. Later, we left to go to this "party" that turned out to be some high school kid who lived in his aunt's basement. There were probably more high schoolers down there, but David and I never made it past the door. When the middle-aged lady wearing the blue mu-mu answered the door, we kind of knew that it was not our cuppa tea, even though the rest of them went downstairs. So David and I dipped and went to his house and I got to play with his puppy AND eat homemade sweet and sour chicken.... I think I had the most fun that night. They called, finally realizing how lame it was, and we met them to go to some other supposed party but when we got there it was a bust too so we finally just called it quits and headed home. And that was Saturday.
Oh! Except when we got home, I made Red go downstairs and I got all the ornaments I bought and put them all over the tree. Turns out, they didn't even realize it had been decorated until the next night. But whatever, I did some good.
Sunday, we woke up and met Jon and Seve at Gwinnett Place Mall because Seve had to find some lingerie Santa suit and.. there was nothing else to do anyway. I got a present for my mom and the other half of Red's present (while he was there... hah!). Then we went to Discover Mills and were just kind of putzing around. Bass Pro Shops is always fun. :] Didn't see anything else there that I could get for anyone. We left and went back to Red's house because we were all supposed to play poker but a few people didn't show up and I was too tired to have any energy to play anyway. So we just sat around watching TV and that was Sunday.
And so now my sister just texted me and asked me to go to the 5pm WW meeting, which is in 20 minutes. I guess I have to go change out of my pjs now..... damn.
More later.
December 20, 2009
Oh I Flucked Up
I didn't keep my promise of a blog a day.
Oh well. You can't win them all.
I feel weird today. I heard on the news early today that Brittany Murphy had died... Full cardiac arrest at the age of 32. It just kind of bothers me to see stuff like that. To be so young and have so much life still ahead of you and then just drop in the bathroom and be gone from your husband, parents, siblings, friends.. the world... in the blink of an eye.
Life is scary.
The weekend was pretty eventful but I don't really think I'm in the mood or have the energy to write all about it.
Maybe next time.
[2:00am, I really want some fucking Krystal's right now. It's open 24 hours. It's a mile from my house. And I haven't had enjoyable fast food in two months. [[and by enjoyable I mean where I was sober enough to enjoy it...]] All I ate today/yesterday, since it's late as fluck, was a subway sandwich with chips and a big ass thing of bubble tea. Because I slept the day away and then had to tail Seve at the mall to pick out a lingerie Santa suit, so I didn't eat all day. If it wasn't 30-something degrees outside and if I didn't care about my diet [[which right now, I don't because I did bad all week]] I would be all over that shit. It's almost worth freezing my still-wet hair in the night air and going to get some. UGH this is so hard!]
Oh well. You can't win them all.
I feel weird today. I heard on the news early today that Brittany Murphy had died... Full cardiac arrest at the age of 32. It just kind of bothers me to see stuff like that. To be so young and have so much life still ahead of you and then just drop in the bathroom and be gone from your husband, parents, siblings, friends.. the world... in the blink of an eye.
Life is scary.
The weekend was pretty eventful but I don't really think I'm in the mood or have the energy to write all about it.
Maybe next time.
[2:00am, I really want some fucking Krystal's right now. It's open 24 hours. It's a mile from my house. And I haven't had enjoyable fast food in two months. [[and by enjoyable I mean where I was sober enough to enjoy it...]] All I ate today/yesterday, since it's late as fluck, was a subway sandwich with chips and a big ass thing of bubble tea. Because I slept the day away and then had to tail Seve at the mall to pick out a lingerie Santa suit, so I didn't eat all day. If it wasn't 30-something degrees outside and if I didn't care about my diet [[which right now, I don't because I did bad all week]] I would be all over that shit. It's almost worth freezing my still-wet hair in the night air and going to get some. UGH this is so hard!]
December 18, 2009
Dec. 18th
So it looks like my physics professor definitely took some pity on me... I got a C+ which is way better than I was expecting. A- in phys lab, B+ in great ideas..... and another C+ in biology.... which I don't understand and I'm really upset about. I thought I had a solid B in there and I know I did well on the final.
I had already prepared my acceptance of a failure in physics.... but not a C in biology.
I was not ready for that..
Can't wait to get my ass chewed the fuck out about that! :D
I had already prepared my acceptance of a failure in physics.... but not a C in biology.
I was not ready for that..
Can't wait to get my ass chewed the fuck out about that! :D
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